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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 01:57

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

One cannot live in the past .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Would this be the day?

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He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But, we were locked up after school.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I waited trembling.

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She found it foreign!.

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She wouldn,t have been !

Who then, do I blame.?

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When she asked me how she looked .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She was in good health!

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

What did i know ?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I will be 64.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I don,t even have a pension.

Im still living with it.

All the time i was locked up.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He knew the spot.

My life is so biszare .

Comes on , in middle age.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So, i spoilt her more .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She loved him until the end.

She married twice! .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As i do to all so called friends.?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Ive learnt so much.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I said to her

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My family never makes their pension either.

I have no regrets .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I think the readers, may guess!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Put me off passion for life!!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But ive been too sick for many years..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was scared of men, in general

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We were not on the streets..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But it wasn’t much.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And i lived it daily.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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This is soul school!.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I could never make a relationship work though!

We all went to grammer schools

I couldn’t, believe it.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

It was going to be , some day.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was 9 years of age.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I write beautiful poetry .

I was very sick at this time too.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I was seconnd youngest,

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

So whats the point in blame.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!